Difficult Topics, Stress Management

Forgiveness When We Fail

It’s Thursday evening. I’m finally sitting down to write this post – a day late. With everything that has been going on in my work life and my personal life,  I have not had a chance to go through my email since Monday. I have skimmed through it a bunch of times to make sure I haven’t missed anything important, but my phone currently tells me I have 153 unread emails. I usually like to keep that number at a max of 10. The laundry that my husband washed this past weekend is still waiting for me to fold it. I have not been on a treadmill and I have only meditated once the past 7 days.

Life has been hectic lately, with two wake-up calls before 5 am this week (normally, I wake up at 7 am). Finding time to do the things that make me happy and keep me sane has been difficult. I have failed this week in taking my own advice.

So, today I fixed that. I brought my laptop outside onto the patio, because it is like spring outside, and started to type. The neighbors saw me and stopped by to chat. I did not interrupt our conversation so that I could get back to this. Instead, I enjoyed the moment. I chatted with my neighbors. I watched the sky by the trees get darker. I breathed in the spring air. I watched my dog hunt for squirrels. And every time the thought that I “should get back to work” entered my head, I told myself I needed this break and that I needed to be present in this moment. When I was bored of taking in the scenery, I would turn back to my computer. If I was stuck on a thought, I would just breath in the warm air.

Even those of us that give advice sometimes forget to take it. So tonight I am reminding myself. I am giving myself permission to slow down and to take a real break. And I forgive myself for forgetting to take care of myself this week. Sometimes it can be so difficult to forgive ourselves that we continue on the wrong path and we get stuck in a rut.

So have a lovely night. Take care of yourself and then your children will learn to take care of themselves too.